The last week was jus so uhhhhhh....so much mixed emotions dat i jus cldnt handle it....but 5nlly the week is ovr.....n m out of all these things, thank god!!!!! my ambivalent state of mind was pissing me off......phew......dats d nly thing that was cuming to my mind.....y is der des stupid moh and maya and attachment and expectation and wat not....y cant i jus cum out of all these feelings, but aftr all m jus an average gal with nthn going my way ofcourse.....so here are all des emotions in my mind and heart.....
Ok now too much of my explanation abt my feelings, lets get to the topic why des emotions and m i writing this blog suddenly.......so here i am, the week started wid my toefl xam and went well that day, met an interesting guy, an annoying one too but its btr talk abt the interesting one ofcourse....so he was nice, the first sight made me realize he was quite weird nd though he was....sum guy wid sum different profession aftr a long time....so it was nice talking to him....it was quite unfortunate 4 him dat day coz he cldnt give xam....but fate, we cant rule ovr it so lets walk by the road which is already made for us...my xam strtd nd he was off...the story finishes....and then came one of my fav days.....my bday....strtd nicely went smoothly but there was real fun to cum my way....so i was wid my sweethearts that evening....we strtd in avis car.....reached the jam packed area and to our entertainment the car stopped...yeah it was out of order.....we came out of the car and there we were in our prettiest dress on the highway pushing the car.....all me, avi, and monal were dam pissed....but for our amazemnt the car strtd so we were happy...we reached the destination and it was an surprise 4 me as usual.....guys i jus luvvvv uuuu to make me feel spl evrytim....and then adding to the fun our car stopped again......but truely it was damn embaracing....jus so much dat avi was irritated to the core.....now annexure to it sumthn really special hapnd, met a frend whom i nvr expected to be der...but he was der....thnx dude for being der....and i felt sumthn i nvr felt abt him...plz now don strt thinking that i lik him or sumthn of that sort...its just a normal friend feeling ok....i knew he was a gud frnd but i din knw dat he was so spl to me......ya ya nd now i knw he is....so nythn 4 u boss 4m nw nd nytime.....dis was at i felt abt him....the confusion was not me but it was he and my other jaans.....he was so novice a person to my grp dat it was difficult for them to digest such a personality....d sam hpnd wid him....and den begun all the confusion....he felt bad dey were irritated....and inturn he was super irritated....so out of all this confusion i dint knw wat xactly to do....but den things got sorted out bye themselves.....i was relieved......and den my mind tuk ovr it i was confused y did i get attached to him....and ovr this confusion i 5nly found a way out .....
Guys dis is actually the reason y i m ritin the blog.....just to tell u all there reading that, the whole jaddddd "the root cause" is attachment and dis then stupidly leads to expectations.... i was irritated of me coz i knw dat the guy whom i gt attached to wil not fulfill all my expectations....nd dats the reason y i got confused.....i got low....and eventually stinged avis and monals head to sort out this but guys am all of it and ul don need to worry....
So please all u der restrict ur attachments and please for gods sake dont keep any xpectations its gonu hurt u.....so prevent urself being hurt....and live like u r all by urself...u need nobdy to be happy and nobdy is free to fulfil ur expectations so btr not keep them.......
P.S: thats for the frnd whom i got attached to:
Dude don worry i hav no expectations from u......but still u r important.....
